weep little lion man, you're not as brave as you were at the start.

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day turns to night, night turns to whatever we want

i was browsing the web today, and i came across something truly unique. cinemagraphs as they are called. a talented young lady named Jamie Beck works hard to makes these photos, and her hard work really pays off. enjoy some of her work below.

i have no lyrics to put in this title but ow my mouth hurts

today has not been a fun day. i got my braces tightened, and a screw removed from my jaw. i'm so insanely sore right now. but i'm really glad that i got my screw removed seeing how it caused me much more discomfort having it than not having it.

in other news, i heard back from the head girl about the vancouver aquarium positions. i didn't get into the one that runs for 2 weeks, where i help run camps for kids. i'm hoping that i get accepted for the times that i want for the second position where i work as a host. fingers crossed!

it's only 8:30, but i'm going to go to bed. i'm super tired, and i really need my rest. sorry for the short post tonight.

you're sky high fighting off the spaceships.

i'm sick. this is no fun, not one bit. i'm thinking i'm catching pneumonia, since eric's sister has it and i spent the entire weekend and then some at his house. poor girl, i hope she gets better soon.

but in better news, a few months ago my boyfriend (eric) applied for a dual credit program in our school to to go school to train to be an electrician at the college, free of charge since it is all paid by the school district. we got the news yesterday that he got in! we're both so happy about that. he really wanted to get in and now his is. i honestly cannot put into words how happy i am for him. the only sad thing is that next year, when he's in grade 12 and i'm in grade 11, i won't get to see him at school for half the year. i guess that'll get me used to him not being at school at all when he's finished school and i'm in grade 12.

but on to a different topic.

yesterday i watched a documentary called The Perfect Vagina. i was really sad watching it, hearing that girls my age feel the need to get parts of the vagina cut off because they don't think their's looks right. to me, there isn't a right and a wrong look for a vagina, just like there isn't a right and a wrong look for any other part of the body. everyone is different, and that's what makes us, well, us. just the fact that someone would want to change such a minor part of their body boggles me. i have never once thought of my vagina being ugly or anything like that. to be honest, i've never really thought much of it at all. girls are self conscious about what guys will think of it, and to be honest, a guy will be too busy doing other things to even notice. i'm personally a huge advocate for loving yourself for the way you are, and why people want to change themselves completely blows my mind. i have never once felt compelled to change anything about myself. sure, i dye my hair, but that's the only thing i do and i do that because i feel like experimenting with different colours aside from my natural one. i have never felt like i have to dye my hair to get positive attention from people. i really hope girls my age realize how beautiful they are without changing themselves.

in your eyes i see the eyes of somebody that could be strong.

i'm so beyond tired right now. it's been a long, (but good!) day. i happily enjoyed my 6 month anniversary with my lovely boyfriend today. we didn't do anything special really, but just being able to spend nearly the entire day with him was wonderful in itself.

i'm still awaiting to hear back from the people at the aquarium. i really hope i hear back soon, since the training days for one of them is next week, and the cut off day for applications is on wednesday. i hope i get into the longer one. i would love being away from home for three and a half weeks. going to granville island, jerchico beach, stanley park, metrotown. there are so many fantastic things i could do while i'm down there. vancouver really is where my heart belongs. i was born there and lived there for the first 6 years of my life before we had to move up to where i am right now. where i am right now is beautiful too, but nothing can top vancouver in my opinion.

anyways, i should probably get to sleep seeing how i have a loooooong day at school tomorrow. by long, i mean it just drags on because it's nearly the end of the year and my classes are boring me now. nightt~

it's just a little touch of fate, i'll be okay.

first things first, happy 17th birthday to my lovely partner in crime.

well then, today was a fairly uneventful day. i slept in late, showered, and spent four hours in total baking cupcakes for my boyfriend's birthday today. the cupcakes were delish though, and totally worth all of the work i put into them.

photo from sweet-oven-lovin.com

i had a wonderful dinner at my boyfriend's house, and that was it for my day.

i'm more excited for what could be coming up in the near future, though. i applied for two volunteer work experience placements at the vancouver aquarium through my school. one is two weeks long and i work with running camps for kids. the second one is three and a half weeks long and i do hosting stuff, such as helping with buses, running the touch pools and other jobs similar to those. i really hope i get in because vancouver has fantastic shopping and it is my favorite city ever. not to mention that i'll be the entire time without my family. it'll just be me and the family friends that i'm staying with, and their two kids. it'll be fun though; i'll be nearly completely independent, which i absolutely love. my boyfriend doesn't want me to go to them because he'll miss me for the time that i'm gone. don't get me wrong, i'd miss him too, it's just that i really want to do this and him saying i shouldn't go isn't going to stop me.

school is going to be over soon. i can't believe that i have about a month left and then school is out for the summer. after summer, i'll just have my last two years of high school and i'll be out. it's kind of unreal when you think about it. time really has gone by, but i have a fool proof plan for what i'm going to do after high school. i'm setting standards high for myself, but i'm pretty sure i can do it.

let me introduce myself. i'm all smiles.

howdy.

i'm alyssa, and i'm sixteen years old. i currently reside in canada, and i'm not one for grand introductions. i do what pleases myself, and the people around me. i bake constantly, cook constantly and read constantly. i dress in clothes that most girls around here wouldn't be caught dead in; with that i mean vintage/vintage inspired fashion. i enjoy music, mostly indie pop/rock, but i'll adapt to whatever i personally find pleasing to my ears.

i'm taken by a wonderful boy who constantly makes me smile. i'm happy to say that we are celebrating our 6 month on monday the 16th. he truly makes me more happy then i could imagine and i love him to bits.

i'm not really sure where i am planning on going with this blog, but i'm hoping to keep it going for a year at the very least. i don't care if anyone is actually going to read this. i'm doing this for myself, and myself only. i can tell you, this blog is going to consist of a lot of, well, me.

so buckle up and enjoy the ride.